理解到儘管我如何努力釋出善意仍然會被惡意所包覆
我真的好希望非暴力溝通成為人類必讀的教材

我永遠記得非暴力溝通的大前提就是
你一定得去相信包容理解才是最強大的溝通手段
我真的很努力去相信
也很努力去執行
但總還是會覺得疲乏到不行
我也不是覺得我是個好人但我好希望仇恨可以停下

SNS真的會讓人心力交瘁
人權低落 各陣營互相斯扯 自由被剝奪 謠言亂傳 事實被掩埋
每天被這些無助感包圍 真的好累

但我還是要相信
我還是會相信
包容跟理解才是最強大的力量
因為如果我連這點都動搖
我才真的會被惡意所吞沒

I don't think genius really exists in the world, even natural talent.
One of my favorite Minecraft Youtuber have amazing building skill.
But I don't think that's "Natural Talent".
I saw his friend have an interview with him, that's a podcast video about how is he started Youtuber career and popular Minecraft SMP in the past or someting else like that.
Accroding to this video I believe his talent is build on his own life experience, he was a house worker so he can know how is the real build should be.
And how is he chose to keep going but not give up by passing through the valley of life.
That valley is the most important thing to know the power of positive and the power of life chose.
That valley can be anything if you keep going.
You can get high enough and know that this is just a part in this journey.
But when you are done it is all done.
Just keep going everybody, you're all the best. :)

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Doing some practice today

I bought Stardew Valley and Lethal Company in Steam winter sale.
I am not a actually gamer but I like playing games sometimes.
Stardew Valley was in my wishlist for a year this is a good chance have this game I think.

And this game just like a time machine took all of my day.
I love games like sandbox/Farming simulation/City build as a result, besides the work I didn't draw anyting in this week.

Maybe I should keep far form theses games.
MAYBE.

I know I haven't been here for so long.
but I wanna try writing dairy in English so let's do it

I woke up at 7:30 a.m today
I slept at 3:00 a.m yesterday so it's a pretty early morning for me.

I am waiting a package from U.K. which missed in early day.
If package return to U.K the shipping cost will be terrible.
So I woke up and doing my job.
2 hours later I finished my work and my eyes just like refuse working anymore.
So I go back to bed again and hoping package will arrive in afternoon
And it's arrived at 10:30 am I think?
I got it and think everything is fine now so I go back to bed again.
11:30 a.m my brother wake me up for lunch.
But I am too tired to eat lunch I struggling with my sleepy sleepy brain until 2:40 p.m.
I try to playing Minecraft to keep awake but totally failed of course.
SO I GO BACK TO BED AGAIN AND WAKE UP AT 7:00 P.M
What a terrible day
And now
I WANT TO GO BACK TO BED AGAIN CUZ MY EYES CAN'T HOLD ANYMORE.
Trying to catch up on sleep but not work at all.

So I learned a lesson today that is "Good sleep make a good day."
That's it. Good night again..............

順便連昨天的一起寫好了
昨天畫圖畫到手痛蠻爽的
我在實況上把Wynncraft刪了之後就畫了一堆東西好快樂
我這種自制力很差的人真的是該遠離MMORPG
我前幾年也是一開黑色沙漠就停不下來
意識到自己都沒時間之後刪了就有時間了(對)

但今天因為手太痛想描線就描不下去
還因為沒辦法畫圖太無聊就開始學怎麼深蹲(??????)
因為我之前深蹲膝蓋都會痛
我本來以為是體重問題結果是姿勢不對
調整了姿勢之後就有辦法蹲了
不過學會之後蹲了幾下就不會走路了(aka腳軟)

回到標題
因為我耳朵真的太容易發炎所以我想戒掉挖耳朵的習慣
為此我還把掏耳棒拿膠帶貼在牆壁上
就是不准挖
已經忍了大概有超過一個禮拜了
心得:好想挖耳朵
(完)

事情是這樣的
→前兩天帶貓去看獸醫
→回家腳踝附近在癢
→癢的地方出現一片粉紅色
→癢的地方顏色逐漸變深
→甚至出現刺痛感跟硬塊感
→不放心跑去看皮膚科
→吃藥吃一吃就睡掉兩天了
然後現在在這寫日記
但我還是有工作跟掙扎著塗鴉
雖然只是小塗鴉
但能這樣持續下來我還真的有點佩服自己

然後剛剛又在玩構圖遊戲

我真的很喜歡把自己的構圖逼到極限
而且通常我不會採用初稿
雖然這個初稿(左上角)感覺其實就很不賴
但我還是不太想用
我對第一時間的直覺其實不太信賴......
但誰知道呢
睡一覺起來搞不好就會覺得幹嘛不選初稿就好了!!
(現在是選了最後多出來的那一個)

頭痛 畏寒 無力
腳上被不知道什麼蟲咬了
查了也查不到....
我希望這症狀與此無關
好累喔.....

下次不想再搞描線Speedrun了
手好痛 眼睛好乾
我要睡了
但我終於完成了一部分
謝天謝地謝我自己

我有想要買給家人的聖誕禮物
但是我想在1111的時候買
因為有優惠
但又因為那東西有保存期限
所以我又覺得多放這一個月很尷尬

還是12月再買吧...............
不然買了先送其實也是可以..........
但又覺得這也提太早了吧...................

然後寫到這邊覺得
這到底是什麼毫無意義的煩惱啊.................XDDDDDDDDDD

然後貓好像身上長了什麼東西他一直在抓癢
明天想抓他去看醫生
但其實我自己也該去看醫生了
我的背痛成白癡....

明明就只是長在舌頭上的一小顆東西
卻搞得我整個人都心神不寧
想做的事情都沒處理🤪
真希望它快點好啊.....

最近電腦會卡頓希望只是Windows更新的問題
希望下一個版本就能把這問題解決

然後手機也是有點問題
網路會開始一直斷
結果手機因為一直忙著重新連線電也是耗得超快
希望下一個版本就能把這問(略

今天好睏!!早點睡!!